This one for my T lady, yeah (ayo, that's Nick)
Wanna start this shit off by saying that I'm sorry
For all the shit that I put you through
For all the shit that you went through
You a real ass woman, can't nobody take that hat from you
I'ma put you in a big house, I promise
I'ma put a smile on your face, I promise
Since you ain't get to see me go to college
But I promise that your baby got knowledge
I'ma make sure that your business start poppin'
I'ma make sure that you don't stress while shoppin'
I'ma make sure that you know you somebody
To me, and your kids, and your husband
Yeah, I'ma make sure that you don't struggle
'Cause you made sure that you was my mother
I'ma take it back to '99, you had me when you was 19, raisin' me all by yourself
Daddy was up in the picture, but had a kid with somebody else
And I can't imagine how the fuck you really felt
But I can't blame that nigga, 'cause I see him up in myself (ayo, that's Nick)
But he put a ring on your finger, and he showed you that he meant it
You forgave him for cheatin', and I hate that all these people take your kindness for weakness
You take pride in your achievements, seen you fight all your demons
You take care of your children (ayo, that's Nick), I know you'd do a killing
If they lay a hand on you, definition of a woman
You stayed up late nights helpin' with my homework, we fuss, we fight
You called dad every night just to get me right (ayo, that's Nick)
He'd tell you take my phone from me, I sneak through the night, go get it back
Soon as he get home, that's my ass, I appreciate both of y'all for that
'Cause if not, where would I be at?
Close my eyes, wish for Brenda back, I know she ain't comin' back
Always tryna get over that (ayo, that's Nick)
Wish she could see where I'm at
Before you died, I ain't get to call you back
Wish I could get another chance
This one right here for you, Brenda
Do you remember when I would help with your hand?
When you fucked it up, punched it through the glass
And I'd do the same when I get mad, swear that I'm just like you, man (ayo, that's Nick)
You remember grandparents' day of school? We painted our hand
(I think I was in like kindergarten, or first grade, or some shit like that)
Took me to the beach, my first time playin' in the sand (ayo, that's Nick)
I swear that you was always the one that knew I'd be the man
You bought me a drum set, wanted me to join the band
You knew I loved the music, broke down hearin' your voice message
I thought you'd be here to meet my kids (ayo, that's Nick)
Why'd it have to turn out like this?
I gotta end your part right here, don't wanna break down in tears
This for the fans
I'm tryna get off drugs, I know y'all hate to see me like this
Tryna get back on my shit (ayo, that's Nick)
I find myself unmotivated, swear this shit be complicatin'
This fame shit, I don't like it, I hate it
Y'all made my dreams come true, made me who I wanted to be
Made me who I worked to be, I'ma leave a legacy, yeah
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(Rest in peace, Brenda)
(I love you)
(Forever and ever)
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh)