I can't pretend that I don't want this Barely scratching the surface Making me so fucking nervous Hoping you don't notice that I'm choking on the silence The thing that now defines us Close the door and lose control A darkness inside grows All the color drains so slow And I hate this life I chose (I hate this life I chose) Your effervescent eyes The only thing I've memorized And I swear I try Cross my heart and hope to die But this fear keeps me paralyzed It's so hard to see the light (It's so hard to see the light) Close the door and lose control A darkness inside grows All the color drains so slow And I hate this life I chose ♪ How could I do this Knowing I could lose it all Who the fuck would choose this (Ooooh) In the end I'm useless Close the door and lose control A darkness inside grows All the color drains so slow And I hate this life I chose (Hate this life I chose) Hate the life I chose (Hate this life I chose) Hate the life I chose