Looking at the paint on the wall beside me
It chips and it drips like a tear inside me
Sitting, staring at a blank calculator
Making up a day to tell my mummy later
Walking in circles and making a mess
Missing the mark but I'm trying my best
Hitting pause on the play, like I did yesterday
Hit one note and call it a day
Would the paint still peel if I wasn't here
Would the walls cave in or disappear
And I can't go back
And answer all their q's
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
No I can't go back
And try to face my truth
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
Lose
Lose
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
Lose
Lose
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
Emotional marathon, lay me down, I'm near death
I never even ran and I'm catching my breath
My day a tinker and a sick guitar riff
Then I chug a cup of water like I'm Paula Radcliffe
Walking in circles and making a mess
Missing the mark but I'm trying my best
Hitting pause on the play, like I did yesterday
Hit one note and call it a day
Would the lights stay on if I was gone
Would I just give up or carry on
And I can't go back
And answer all their q's
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
No I can't go back
And try to face my truth
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
Lose
Lose
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
Lose
Lose
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
What if I can't go back
What if I can't stay here
What if it falls apart
What if my legs give out
I'm overwhelmed by fear
What if I break my heart
And I can't go back
And answer all their q's
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
No I can't go back
And try to face my truth
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
Lose
Lose
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
Lose
Lose
I've got everything to lose
Everything to lose
Lose