I'm so good at hiding sadness like a secret Shit, they see it, how'd you notice? Don't ask me if I'm okay I'm not sure if anybody gives a shit about it anyways 'Til they tell me, "Just sit down, be quiet" How do I reconcile that? And if no one's listening, maybe that's fine I can finally say things nobody likes Like, "Sorry I bring in such a bad vibe, I wish I was different" But the grass is greener wherever it grows And I'm sick of all those storybook tropes Search the field for pieces I broke I wish I was different Different, different, different Different, different, different I-I-I'm such a big fan, I really like me I kinda wish that you could like me Like I like me when I don't hate me 'Cause when I like me, I really do I'm a control freak, it's really dicey, let me explain that Wish you could see me exactly how I wanted you to I'm a control freak (that would be easier, I wish you could see me, I'm a-) I'm a control freak (I wish, I wish I was different) (That would be easier for me, that would be easy) I'm a control freak