I been tryna read the signs
I been tryna clear my mind
I been tryna find a way to say the things
I keep down deep inside
I been running low on words
Feel my way through all the hurt
I been tryna keep a smile around the ones
Who only do me dirt
Been through way more than I thought I could handle
So please excuse when I act like a handful
You don't know
Half of the shit I done been through
Fucked up my heart
And it fucked up my mental
You don't know
Half of the lies Ive heard told
All of the friends that done turned into foes
All of the shoulders that slowly turned cold
Fair weather friends only round when its warm
Caught up in your greed
Caught up in opinions
If you ain't got what I need
Then motherfuck your feelings
Done with everything
So baby here's your chance
You can go
Why am I so emotional
Yeah I bet you would kill to know
But you can't get close at all
Cause I built up all these walls
Tell me is it worth it
Do I even deserve it
Yeah I know you feel me
But you know that you can't heal me
Life is just a cycle
That something only I know
I been tryna change it but
I can't seem to gauge it
So can you love me
Through my mood swings
Baby I'm a mood ring
Love me when I'm grey and old
Love me when you hate me
Even if you world change me
If not then it ain't love at all
Why am I so emotional
Yeah I bet you would kill to know
But you can't get close at all
Cause I built up all these walls