Self love is something that I need to work on
Have you ever felt like a bad person?
Cause I have, and I'm sad, I wish that I could change
I have no clue what to do with all this pain
Everyday, drags me deeper into shame
And I've had enough
This ain't a bluff
I'm not that tough, but I'm fighting for my one & only
How I wish that I could love myself, I'm talking fully
Y'all fill me up with love, but my cup is so holey
So it just pours out of me
Standing on my balcony, thinking I should jump
Cause I don't see no light in me, and I've had enough
It's time for me change or fucking die
I've been working 9-5 for my whole entire life
Just tryna get by, survive another night
That's what I got inside of my mind
I just really wanna thrive
And I wish that I don't ever have to die but I will
But I will
I'm lost in my head again
Think I need some medicine
Devil steady knocking and I'm trying not to let him in
Sleep paralysis
Demons sitting on my chest again
Suffocating maybe I don't wanna draw a breath again
I'm fucked up thug it out
Everyday I wonder how
Ima die I feel death around me times running out
And if it's done
Sorry to the ones that I was shutting out
Closed off
Don't know how the fuck to trust nobody now, yeah
I done been crossed too many times
I can't put my heart up on the line, nah
Never again
Fuck it and tell her we better as friends
And break her heart before I ever pretend
I'll never settle again
I can't spare the time for no long talk
You got me sitting on the bench when I'm an all star
And I thought it was the end
Till my nigga hit me and said you gotta chance
Here's where it all starts, get it