Was going through changes
They've been coming for a while
Hiding from dangers that I heard in the bright nights
And I hold up my hands
This will be my final stand, before I
Every day when I wake up, I get up and look at my face
What a disgrace
That's what I say to myself most days
'Cause the shame that I feel
For losing myself to the Vicodin pills
Held me like crutches
Usually not one for holding on grudges
But still I won't look at myself in the mirror
I just won't touch it, I still do not love it
I'm haunted by every selfish decision
And maybe I'm broken and not meant for healing
It seems that way, losing my mind by the day like I'm yielding it
This is some serious shit, fuck any image, I'm as real as it gets
Stopped at cross roads of life, change, it is what it is
Change, it is what it is
Was going through changes
They've been coming for a while
Hiding from dangers that I heard in the bright nights
And I hold up my hands
This will be my final stand, before I
My heart's like a battlefield—bloodied and bruised
From all of the changes that I have been through
My mind is a mess, I can't process
Or deal with things that happened in the past
All the loved ones I lost, my family moved out
I take pills to cope or I cry and I pout
But none of it works, it's always the same
A day spent on drugs, otherwise, I'm in pain
All of these variables, I need a constant
Planet keeps spinning, it's driving me bonkers
Don't think you get it, change made me psychotic
The drugs that I take usually make me robotic
Pathetic, I'll be the first to admit
One day you'll hear I'm in the mental clinic
Come visit, 'cause I'll be alone
All of my friends are gonna be gone
Was going through changes
They've been coming for a while
Hiding from dangers that I heard in the bright nights
And I hold up my hands
This will be my final stand