Last night I decided that I cared for the last time
'Cause this life was never fair, but that's alright
Sick of hiding while I stare from the sidelines
(Sick of hiding while I stare from the-)
Too comfortable, the world ain't what it seems
That trust was all a veil for this disease
Don't be surprised if you don't hear from me
I'm dead inside, there's nothing left to leave
No one asked me what I wanted, I don't think I can do this
I've just been putting up a front, it's barely getting me through this
Feels like my body's getting crushed and I'm expected to prove it
I should've listened to my gut 'cause now I'm too scared to lose it
Didn't get the message, guess this
Couldn't be avoided, now I'm desperate
Reckless, always get exploited, don't try me
Lost my edge guess I have bad timing
Got revenge, putting this behind me
Now I've done it
Sat around and waited when I knew it wasn't coming
Now I'm everything I hate and I got everything I've wanted
I still make the same mistakes so let me go before I plummet
(Let me go before I-)
Last night I decided that I cared for the last time
'Cause this life was never fair, but that's alright
Sick of hiding while I stare from the sidelines
(Sick of hiding while I stare from the-)
Too comfortable, the world ain't what it seems
That trust was all a veil for this disease
Don't be surprised if you don't hear from me
I'm dead inside, there's nothing left to leave
Gotta keep my head low (gotta keep my head low)
There's a lot of men who want me dead
I should worry about myself though (I should worry about myself though)
It's a miracle I haven't gave up yet (gave up yet)
Always manic and I swear I hate it
Scared like nothing's ever sacred
They don't even try, just avoid me for being complicated
I missed every opportunity, there's nothing you can do for me
Just leave me out to die, I understand it isn't new to me
But who's that standing in my mirror? I don't think I'm seeing clear
Now I have a poltergeist insisting I should reconsider
Cut my throat and break the cycle, been so long since I could smile
Finally think my heart is mine but part of me is in denial
(Last night I decided that I cared for the last time)
('Cause this life was never fair, but that's alright)
(Sick of hiding while I stare from the sidelines)
(Sick of hiding while I stare-)
Last night I decided that I cared for the last time
'Cause this life was never fair, but that's alright
Sick of hiding while I stare from the sidelines
(Sick of hiding while I stare from the-)
Too comfortable, the world ain't what it seems
That trust was all a veil for this disease
Don't be surprised if you don't hear from me
I'm dead inside, there's nothing left to leave