I'm not ashamed, I'll admit it
Life sucks, don't blink
You could miss it
Still stuck, overthink my decisions
I just wanna go back home
Just a kid that no one-
I'm not ashamed, I'll admit it
Life sucks, don't blink
You could miss it
Still stuck, overthink my decisions
I just wanna go back home
Just a kid that no one knows
Not this, stuck inside the past
I can't focus
Lost it, over in a flash
Now it's hopeless, toxic
My world's almost over
It's changing to gray
I can't get my closure
I'm fading away
Four years down the drain
Now they came and went
Same sound, same face, I'm so sick of it
If this is how it ends, I have no regrets
Tomorrow I'll wake up and I'll just forget
Wait, wait, wait, wait, I don't wanna go
Please just don't say anything, I don't like the tone
Moments keep slipping away like the metronome
Soon I'll erode and decay, turn into a ghost
Don't want the suggestion
All this paranoia can't be good for my complexion
Easy to destroy a world and build it back in seconds
Got the "In memoriam" in writing without question
Really can't afford another meaningless obsession
I can't control
What's set in stone
I can't control
What's set in stone
I'm not ashamed, I'll admit it
Life sucks, don't blink
You could miss it
Still stuck, overthink my decisions
I just wanna go back home
Just a kid that no one knows
Not this, stuck inside the past
I can't focus
Lost it, over in a flash
Now it's hopeless, toxic
My world's almost over
It's changing to gray
I can't get my closure
I'm fading away
I still remember
The sound of the leaves from mid-September
Warm memories from the change in weather
So I still listen-
Now all I hear is silence
Lifetimes pass while I hide behind my eyelids
I might crash, drown it out among the sirens
Nowhere fast, there's no reason to deny it
(No reason to deny it)
I'm losin' my grip
I came to terms with my world
So I could lose it again
Now I can never return
To how it was back then
And I can still feel the burn
That I would get in my chest
It shouldn't be a concern
I guess my heart knows best
I'm sick of getting older
Learning names, falling out
Starting over
Now I'm trapped in the ground
Growing colder
Growing colder
I'm not ashamed, I'll admit it
Life sucks, don't blink
You could miss it
Still stuck, overthink my decisions
I just wanna go back home
Just a kid that no one knows
Not this, stuck inside the past
I can't focus
Lost it, over in a flash
Now it's hopeless, toxic
My world's almost over
It's changing to gray
I can't get my closure
I'm fading away