So many ways to say I miss you But I couldn't count no matter how I try They wouldn't fill the hole you left gaping Only drive it deeper, farther down inside I never blame you, never blame you for leaving You didn't have a choice, nor did I Struggling with the fact, the fact I'm no longer having My rock to lean on, a shoulder to cry Holidays couldn't get much longer If only those memories could be more real And I wish I could say, you left me stronger Lying to myself wont change how I feel Trying like hell to more forward Empty bottles seem to lend a hand Staying up 'tll dawn, drinking whiskey Can't drown my pain or make a better man Holidays couldn't get much longer If only those memories could be more real And I wish I could say, you left me stronger Lying to myself wont change how I feel I took after you since I can remember Look, walk, and talk nearly just the same I don't think I'm ready for the burden Of carrying on our family name I know for a fact how much you loved me Never missed a chance to tell me so I can only hope soon enough I'll realize You raised me up to not fall but grow Holidays couldn't get much longer If only those memories could be more real And I wish I could say, you left me stronger Lying to myself wont change how I feel