Skylines look candy coated in my rear view mirror Kaleidoscopic visions Portra burned into my memory As I left my home town everything was vivid Wish I could frame the moment Like a Kodak picture 1am I'm zoning I'll call you in a moment Please don't hit decline When no one else was for you I let you bang my line And everybody knows it Reminisce on times When all I felt was hopeless I'm a rebel with a cause Momma pray for all my dogs Hell is hot and Death is long So I'm trying to balance wrongs Even if I was to fall Promise wouldn't be too far Through it all I carry on Thought I found what I need Small lost soul searching for anything Did a bunch of drugs hoping epiphany Would put things in line help me fall into me And stop judging myself Whole what I dug figure love sorta helped So loves what I held oh so close And the boy went and felt The cold cold turf Falling head over heels Couldn't tell what was real See the ashes in the mirror When it all burned down And the void was still here Know my head wasn't clear Dumb numb was the feel Dumb drunk in the field So close on the heels Of my goals and the leer Of it all interfered The most purposeful still Self love is a gradual skill Now I'm thankful that that car crash didn't take me Phoenix rising from the ashes on the pavement What to do when you've traded everything you've laid with? For something so uncertain Trying to close the curtains Finally found a purpose And I feel more secure Hanging off the ledge Than waiting for more 1-45 ride for the night Need to take a drive Need to clear my mind I'm a rebel with a cause Momma pray for all my dogs Hell is hot and Death is long So I'm trying to balance wrongs Even if I was to fall Promise wouldn't be too far Through it all I carry on