You weren't supposed to leave me
You were weak
But you were breathing
I was nineteen
I was terrified
I saw the fear in mommas eyes
I thought you were invincible
I hated God he stole from me
To me, he's just a criminal
I hate to be so cynical
That's just not how you raised me
But Some things are unforgivable
It almost drove me crazy
I just wanna make you proud
I just wanna make you proud
Remember that time when you broke out
Of the hospital just to make it to my graduation
All of our friends and family were faded
You showed up in a gown
Draggin' your oxygen tank on the ground
I heard you say "son"
I turned around
To your smile
And your arms out
And when I ran out that door
I kept on running till I couldn't run anymore
Til I was short of breath and sore
And I fell to the floor
Who do you want me to be
What do you want me to do
You never wanted me to be
Anything other than me
Did you
Who do you want me to be
What do you want me to do
You never wanted anything other than true
Did you
It feels so good to say out loud
But I could never seem to get it out
You were right about it all
All those friends you said
Were never my friends
Every single one is gone
I just wanna be right
When I know that I'm wrong
I used to say I was trying my hardest
I knew that I wasn't
You knew I was lying
But I really mean it this time
I promise I'm doing it right
I really mean it this time
I promise I'm doing it right
You weren't supposed to leave me
You were weak
But you were breathing
I was nineteen
I was terrified
I saw the fear in mommas eyes
I thought you were invincible
I hated God he stole from me
To me, he's just a criminal