Maybe I'm not who I used to be
I'm complacent, OK with a life at ease
When I left I was a nervous wreck
Now I just survey the ceiling
Five months at home alone
With not a lot to show (not a lot to show)
I can't find hope unless I'm dreaming
I can see my friends but not their face
Bailing on plans again
Stay out my six foot space
I just can't accept that there's nothing left
And nobody's close to keep me in check
...
I miss the sight of healthy public life
Fucking sick of everyone ignoring all the signs
Do you ever think that there's a reason that you wouldn't try?
It blurs my mind and now I cannot sleep for shit at night
Five months at home alone
With not a lot to show (not a lot to show)
I can't find hope unless I'm dreaming
I can see my friends but not their face
Bailing on plans again
Stay out my six foot space
I just can't accept that there's nothing left
And nobody's close to keep me in check
To keep me in check
...
Do you ever think that there's a reason that you wouldn't try?
Blurs my mind and now I cannot sleep for shit at night
Blurs my mind and now I cannot sleep for shit at night