I've been scraping black tar off your eyelids
Exchanging your feelings for silence
Waiting for your teeth to clench
The moment when you realize what I meant
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
And you're pleading from the bottom of your heart
And I've fallen down before
But I'd never fell apart
When you find yourself surrounded by the ones you love the most
Your brain spills out and crams the skull full of those old ghosts
Do they haunt you, like they haunt me?
Were you ever really listening
To the words that crept through my teeth?
I guess I'll never know
Closed eyes lead to open mouths
And from the inside looking out
It looks a lot like we're still waiting to start to forget
The moment you held my hand
Was the second I held my breath
And the things I miss the most are the things I never said
As your fingers drip down my spine (I can't remember who I used to be
And I can't remember who I was trying to be.)
Your breath is apart of mind
But maybe I'm selfish
And you can't sleep tonight
We scrawl our plans on documents that dissolve into the earth
You can sleep in the city
I will sleep in the dirt
...and I can remember
Your face that night
Body to body your head rested on mine
And I can recall
That you said we'd talk
But we never did, and we never will
So I'll cover myself in graphite, wrap your neck in tin
To remind myself that I will be erased again
I'm chewing on the same things I always am
And you're looking for the same things I could never give