Met her online
She was in Cali
That's not too far of a drive
I'm making my way to your side
She didn't know I was dark
I lost the way to my heart
I found a way to the pills
Hollywood lost in the hills
I'm with the celebrities
I don't want these memories
I met your favorite
They're all on the drugs
Holding her hair
She threw up on my rug
Staying up no rest
I saw the devil confess
Secrets that I'll keep I know
Found someone who sees my soul
I let you in and now you can't get out
I showed you my dark
You're my biggest spark
I've got ice around my heart
I think I'm crazy cause I feel too much
I feel emotions I don't even touch
Things that I've done I didn't take no pictures
I didn't announce it
I feel like that's realer
But they keep on asking me
Why you don't talk
They keep on asking me
Why are you not on
They keep on asking me
We should collab
They keep on asking me
I'm a real psycho
I'm socially awkward
They think that I'm weird
Cause I don't care to see
I'm in all black
Just to stand in the back
I got my shadows
They're all over me
When I try to love
It's never enough
They look at my kindness as if I am weak
I've never been kind
That's never been me
I'm shifting my mind
Changing my beliefs
I always get hurt
When I open up
I've never been single and focused on me
These days it's different
I just keep my distance
Count up the money
And stay out the way
Attracting my blessings
I'm wrapped up in faith
Material only feels good for the moment
But it can't make up for the times you feel lonely
Counting by myself
Counting by myself