Feel that hurt in my voice
Feel the pain on it
I can't eat, I can't sleep
Sound insane don't it?
These are the, these are the entries in my diary
Imma let y'all all inside of me
Been having visions of the top, I hope I make it there
Face everything and rose, overcame that fear
I've been feelin like Jaden sometimes I hate it here
And, I've been patiently waiting cause life ain't playin fair
I can't take it
Feel like Diddy, I just need my matching statements
I'm always in my head, I can't escape it
A milli on repeat, the first line's my affirmation
I'll replay it til I make it
Still that caterpillar going through some changes
Still that rose tryna grow through the pavement
Lord knows, my heart's cold
Why they break it?
You want the gold, I want my soul
We aint the same kid
My thoughts are dangerous
I'm chasing dreams like I'm Meek
I know a Mill's waiting
I'm tryna keep the peace
I'm meditatin, elevatin, tryna ease the pain
I won't stop til the whole world know my name
Feel that hurt in my voice
Feel the pain on it
I can't eat, I can't sleep
Sound insane don't it?
Been content and wanted more in the same moment
All these tears hit the floor
Left a stain on it
Can't be complacent
Evolving everyday
Slowly I've been changing
I gotta make a way
I swear I gotta make it
Cause I can't take it
This pain been achin
I can't take it
The closest to me couldn't tell you what I'm going through
I've been grindin all my life
These clips been overdue
I'm in the mirror like "don't stop, they'll notice you"
I swear somedays it's been hard
But, I ain't folding dude
I gotta be me, that's all I know to do
This ain't easy, and I can show you proof
Please believe me, cause I got more to prove
This ain't gettin in the way, it fueled a song or two
Being broke ain't the way I wanna live no more
I'm gettin tired of those eviction letters on my door
Took my brother to court
He ain't been right since
Seen them cuffs on his wrist and I was losing it
Feel that hurt in my voice
Feel the pain on it
I can't eat, I can't sleep
Sound insane don't it?
Been content and wanted more in the same moment
All these tears hit the floor
Left a stain on it
Can't be complacent
Evolving everyday
Slowly I've been changing
I gotta make a way
I swear I gotta make it
Cause I can't take this
This pain been achin
I can't take it
Same dream, same heart but my hunger different
They say I need a Snickers, cause I've been going nuts
All those hungry nights, they fueled my ambitions
I've been seeing things, I think I'm really trippin
Too much to see, can't sleep, there's so much I been through
Lord please, help me, fore I grab my pistol
Too many nights up late like Jimmy Kimble
My little dawg was in the kennel, almost lost my mental
I've been breaking
Too much weight on my shoulders, I can't take it
I've been writing down this pain, filling pages
I gotta make it
I've been tryna rid some things, I gotta face it
Bill collectors on my line wanting payments
I gotta change this
I'm losing patience
Life's been hitting me hard like flagrant
I know my worth I need 200 occasion
Feel that hurt in my voice
Feel the pain on it
I can't eat, I can't sleep
Sound insane don't it?
Been content and wanted more in the same moment
All these tears hit the floor
Left a stain on it
Can't be complacent
Evolving everyday
Slowly I've been changing
I gotta make a way
I swear I gotta make it
Cause I can't take this
This pain been achin
I can't take it