Tired being alone
Days and nights on my own
Been in the dark for ages i'm starting to call it home
Was doing my best to fit in
But I don't really get it
How people can glamorise behaviours they don't condone
They put me on pills cuz I don't fit in the norm
Bought a Gucci umbrella just to weather the storm
I jug a bottle of Moscato to deal with the drama
Then pop some pills and drink some beers just to ease the pain
I get a trumpet tatted on my arm like lady gaga
Then sober up and be like I will never drink again
And for my family now it's painful to see me
Cuz i'm closer to my dealer than I am to my GP
Believe me, when your on your way up slipping up is so easy
I'm feeling stuck in a maze I'd sell my soul for a break
I'm feeling stuck in a maze I'd give it all for a break
Now I feel so empty
The odds have turned against me
Tired of feeling so guilty
I don't mind the pain it's the hope that kills me
Now am I meant to feel guilty cuz you amounted to nothing?
When you made fun of my depression like it's my fault or something?
Listen, I don't wanna know you I don't owe you anything
And I beg you not to test me cuz I'll show you
When I'm hanging with the homies
I can answer any question that you throw me
In a second in a minute and everybody can get it
When god sent me a message I resorted to the bottle
Since Feels Like I Won The Lotto it felt like we won the lotto
We used to line up to get in and now they greet us with bottles
These people say they love me
They stay away when I'm grumpy
I buy you chocolate and flowers then call you saying you're ugly
Cuz I'm bipolar
Overthinking things until one day my mind will blow up
You don't have the right to judge me cuz things I seen were so ugly
The ride to here was bumpy there's beauty in every ugly
I'm feeling stuck in a maze I'd give it all for a break
Now I feel so empty
The odds have turned against me
Tired of feeling so guilty
I don't mind the pain it's the hope that kills me
But nothing seems to change
It's funny ain't it?
Cuz love is love and hate is love depending on the way you take it
Now I feel so empty
The odds have turned against me
Tired of feeling so guilty
I don't mind the pain it's the hope that kills me