Choking on painkillers stuck in my throat 13 years old writing suicide notes Hiding razor blade scars under my coat Got on the internet how to tie rope To a noose, domestic abuse it's well written You hear "motherfucker" and "die bitch!" from out your kitchen When you intervene, your own neck's getting twisted To the sound of broken dishes flying all around you bitches I don't understand, why would you even have children When you live in war-zone and front-line is our buildin' Growing up here, I've seen more than I'd like to witness Family's throwing fists it's just everyday business "Get out," my mamma tells him, she don't noticed me there's too much distance I fade back, see you in hell then It wouldn't happened if you only just listened I'd be alive today, if only you'da heard what I had to say Give me the time or day, I probably be alive but I passed away For you, to look at me For you, to just look at me Things really haven't been the same as they just to be And she don't think what this shit really does to me This motherfucker only thought about his own and when she took em Everything fall apart now they're gone I tried to tell her what was going on, but she don't wanna listen Providing for the family was always been mission She ain't the type to stand by and show any support Got a letter from my lawyer saying I need to be in court For what? You're always fucking screaming at the kids Treating em like shit and I can't even begin To even think that I won't never see em again When you lose it all you think about is getting revenge She wanna stab me in the back, I'm gonna catch her alone I'm finna to put this bullet in my motherfucking dome Tried to help her out, she couldn't stop bitchin' Could've been happy if you would've just listened Big Hoodoo, I specialize in dead speaking The jinx homie quick to leave a haters dead leaking Life's fucked up, I feel like I might die tonight Smoking on some fireworks, while I'm sniffing dynamite Cannibal animals, we learn from Hannibal Lecter Dismantle cantaloupes, get rid of bodies like I'm Dexter Come from a different texture, I'm a murder expert My eyes go black, I pull your ribs out your fucking sweatshirt Never had, so I'm thinking death must be nice And I'm homicidal, so I'm also thinking "fuck your life" Moms told me she gave birth to an evil genius Cause she gets pregnant doing drugs, bumping "Kkkill The Fetus" My voodoo got em singing "yeah motherfuckers" It's Hoodoo swinging with The Garcia Brothers Fucked up now we're in our graves reminiscin' Of how our lives would be, if the world would've only listened