I don't like to have
The weight on my back
Of thinking that
Someone needs me
I'm not strong enough
And honestly I'm scared
For when I do something wrong
And I'm not the only one who gets hurt
I'm playing with this rubber band
I got inside my counselors room
I play with it when I'm scared
And I don't know what else to do
You're sitting on this couch, I drink
You're sitting right across from me
I know the possibilities
But I'm playing with this rubber band right now
If someone likes the way I look
I'll pinch my middle fingers ring
And kick some dirt and close my eyes
These things just don't make sense to me
I don't want to let you down
And so for your sake and mine
I'm not going to make a move
I said I would but didn't even try
But I know that I could give you all you need
But at the same time we both know you could do better than me
Trying to grow within the blinds of my room
But at least this way
I know I won't hurt you
And I, wish I believed
But I know myself, if you knew me
You'd see how I'm about these things
I'm sorry, I am
I was mean to you when you stopped by
You didn't have to, you're just nice
It's too small a thing to apologize
But it's taking up space inside my mind
You texted me when you were proud
And I chose to wait to respond
Why couldn't I just do the right thing
I'm always doing something wrong, I know
But I know that I could give you all you need
But at the same time we both know you could do better than me
Trying to grow within the blinds of my room
But at least this way
I know I won't hurt you
And I, wish I believed
But I know myself, if you knew me
You'd see how I'm about these things
I'm sorry