I can't stop writing all my feelings down It keeps me busy when you're not around But i can't help reread until i want to tear them out All my emotions overcome with doubt Maybe it comes from all the ones before I think they had a bet on who could hurt me more And i'm not used to not being used You make me feel secure Watch me self sabotage and shut the door So long i've been wondering if i'll always stay the same I want to let you love me but i'm terrified of change I'm scared of breaking up and scared of breaking down Scared of my friends asking why i'm never around I'm independent but still feel alone Don't want to fall in love if i've still got to grow I'm scared of hurting people like people hurt me Scared of forcing something that just isn't meant to be Don't want to lose control Give up my heart and soul Don't want another person to feel whole Can't comprehend the fact that you're still here I'm still expecting you to up and disappear Cause i know i can be selfish, bitter and jealous But you love me still the same It's so foreign knowing you're gonna stay You bring out a side of me that no ones ever seen I want to let you love me but i'm too scared that you'll leave And i'm scared of breaking up and scared of breaking down Scared of my friends asking why i'm never around I'm independent but i still feel so alone Don't want to fall in love if i've still got to grow I'm scared of hurting people like people hurt me Scared of forcing something that just isn't meant to be Don't want to lose control Give up my heart and soul Don't want another person to Feel like i'm like special and like i'm loved Like i always be enough How i can feel that? I just want feel that Without somebody by my side Telling me the reasons why I been struggling To let somebody in Incase i lose myself