So tell me what am I supposed to do I'm stuck here debating if I really knew you You told me just to follow my heart That things would get better now they're falling apart I've been stuck inside my head for so long Now I'm scraping to get by Now I'm up now I'm up, now I'm going away for awhile I'm up I give up don't deserve to be put on trial, whoa I'm up now I'm up now I'm going away for awhile You hold me accountable for The times that I fuck up and the times that I don't I'm sorry that I'm a shell of myself proving once again I can't trust anyone else Now I'm up now I'm up now I'm going away for awhile I'm up I give up don't deserve to be put on trial whoa I'm up now I'm up now I'm going away for awhile If not now then when If I don't do this for myself