I haven't been myself all year Too many changes around here And the road to happiness has been a crash course It's been a long year since you left And a whole week since I last slept Dusting myself off to ride the wild horse Don't know where I'm going Or just what it means But the scars remind me of exactly where I've been If you try to find me My number's not the same Hang my hat up on negative lane People keep asking how I've been Because of the state of mind I'm in There's a million places I swore I would be by now Radio songs all sound the same I almost played in to that whole game But the boy's club hung a sign that said "no girls allowed" Don't know where I'm going Or just what it means But the scars remind me of exactly where I've been If you try to find me My number's not the same Hang my hat up on negative lane You take the road of self destruction To the culdesac of shame Hang my hat up on negative lane I keep on coming around I got one foot back on the ground And when the other joins me I'll be splitting town