I lived and died and came out on the other side
I walk the earth, but you're not in my wake
The glaring sun out of tune with the wrong I've done
Can I survive past my greatest mistake?
And love, I know I'm not the hero that you thought and hoped I was
But fallibility's inbuilt, and we proceed against all odds
They made us so we don't outgrow the gods
I must accept that I'm alive
I must try
And I must learn to live with the years I'm given
Now that I know I'll live past twenty-seven
The siren call of the wine and the bacchanal
Won't wipe my mind, but I'm blinded by light
Oh Golden God, raise me up from the stone and sod
The antidote to my time on the underside
I'm tired of stories, tired of meaning
And the burden words place on me
I have reached the end of making sense
My mind will soon be gone
It's time that I surrendered to the sun
I must accept that I'm alive
I must strive
And I must learn to live with the years I'm given
Now that I know there's no such thing as heaven
I sing of light, Sol Invictus' holy might
I join the sect and I walk by his side
They come to me, but I don't want their company
The violent glee of the women who fight
I couldn't love another woman
They remind me so of you
But I'd love a man whose love I can rely on through and through
I could love a man whose love can make me new
I must accept that I'm alive
I must thrive
And I must learn to live with the years I'm given
Now that I know I'll live past twenty-seven
Now that I know there's no such thing as heaven
Still I wish they'd left me in the river