Hope is not a plan
It's a good creature but it can't do much
It's a loser that is holding on
Yet I yearn for finally giving up
Faith is coil and it yanks my chain
Puppy crying all in vain
I am sad I still deal with all the same things that I once did
I want all the things that I never had (ah)
The things that normals take for granted, I'm sad
A brain and a body not in war
Something to keep living for
I cry forever lay at your feet
Wanting caring, wanting sleep (ah)
But thinking I did worst of all
Cannot allow it
So I slit my inner arms up
Pulling all the tissue out
Creating rivers from my shoulders to my thumbs
I wanna take all the bad things
All the things I didn't think that I had to deal with
And I wanna pull it all out of me
There are things in here that I didn't put there
They were forced in me and now they're glued
And please don't yell don't scream
Or I feel unreal
I am scared of you
But I am scared of myself too
I want all the things that I never had (ah)
The things that normals take for granted, I'm sad
A brain and a body not in war
Something to keep living for
I cry forever lay at your feet
Wanting caring, wanting sleep (ah)
But thinking I did worst of all
Because you told me that's the case
And I want the things that I'm not allowed to touch
A sense of something pure like love
And I need the things you told me I did
And it's the grossest sense of sickening
And I should've listened to my inner voice
Speaking up
But I never spoke up
And thinking I did worst of all
Cannot allow it
Cannot allow it
Cannot allow it
Cannot allow it