My entire self is built from praise I received in adolescence
And the ever growing fear that I'm just getting less impressive
You told me I was special never taught me how to not be
I'll fly straight into the sun baby it's too late to stop me
Top of the class dead at the bottom of the barrel
And I'm drowning in the plot of my forever dress rehearsal
Had my piece of cake but I can't stomach bread and butter
Take my better self to bed just to hide under the covers
Am I a burnt out former gifted kid or just a lazy narcissist
Was I always gonna be like this
Is it something we could have avoided
'Cause my identity rests on each performance
Real is a risk and I can't afford it
I need your love and to ignore it
Now clap
I retrace my steps follow the trail of perfect scores
And I'm unsurprised to realise that I've always been this bored
Always obsessed with winning proud of not having to try
Imprisoned in perception hating the self I won't apply
I'll do almost anything to avoid being alone
With all that so much potential and these half assed seeds I've sown
The opposite of stage fright a fear still undefined
And I try to think about it like reading a strangers mind
Am I a burnt out former gifted kid or just a lazy narcissist
Was I always gonna be like this
Is it something we would have avoided
'Cause my identity rests on each performance
Real is a risk and I can't afford it
I need your live and to ignore it
Now clap
Writings on the fourth wall the stage is growing fragile
But I need to see you see me or reality unravels
A string of desperate measures a tangled can't grow up
And I'll implode if you ignore me any excuse to self destruct
A lonely vain exhibit a burning house of glass
Nothing I do really matters 'till I share it with the class
I barely learnt to tie it before the other shoe was dropping
Compulsive causing scenes 'cause I'm not real if you're not watching
Am I a burnt out former gifted kid or just a lazy narcissist
Was I always gonna be like this
Is it something we could have avoided
'Cause my identity rests on each performance
Real is a risk and I can't afford it
I need your live and to ignore it
Now clap