Whenever I woke up at 8 o'clock in the night
I always think of my dead friends who have left before me
Often I remembered great talks and memories about them
Before I realize they'll never come back
Sometimes I wish my leg got amputated
So I can feel how does it feel to have a real loss
'Cause these losers always told this to me
"Oi you fat boy, a lot people got worse than yourself"
Time running wild and I admit they're right
My selfish gene got bigger than my balls
I chewed too much stuff on my mouth and got fat
Before I forgot my friends are dead
I sleep with warm blanket named depression
Taking many doses of ASMR session
So I can throw away the fact that I'm just unlucky
That they're finally gone while I am still walking
Truth be told my depression doesn't mean anything
'Cause I just care about myself instead of them families
Who lost their son and daughter just too early
I admit I lost my sense of humanity
If I could wish one thing
I wish I could see my real reflection in the mirror
I am an ugly man and so I am an ugly soul
I would've expected myself to fall into a world full of regret
I wish I could see my real reflection in the pond
And then drown myself to the bottom
I would've expected myself to fall into a world full of regret
From our first phone call I already know something
That you're scared of me and everything and anything
It's okay 'cause it's normal as it does
I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't love either
You can leave the table anytime you want
I'll pay the food and the time that you've wasted
You don't need to say farewell and you don't have to
'Cause I can't say it to them while God took all of them
Help yourself, and get yourself a new boyfriend
Screw him, tear him apart, whatever you want
'Cause I don't care, I just need you to remind yourself
Be grateful every time you breathe
'Cause you can't have it all
The weekend start today
All of them floating bodies are going away
Drink to comfort your dismay
Your delightful sorrow is always meant to stay
Hold my hand, I'll lead the way out
From this haunting display
The weekend start today
All of them floating bodies are going away
Drink to comfort your dismay
Your delightful sorrow is always meant to stay