It's so much easier to listen than to write about it
Sometimes it's easier to lie about it
Ha, but do they try? I doubt it
Looking for my fucking pride, I found it
I been doubted, I been down in my feelings, it's astounding
My head above water, but it feels like I'm drowning
See, I want them at the shows but my life is too crowded
I said I don't wanna change, I'm a mess, say it proudly
I've been clouding up my brain just to see my surroundings
Man, fuck the world, it's too official
Make me feel like I'm mental
And now I'm drawn to pencils
I pick em up then I scribble
And piddle with little riddles
The image of living simple
Simply wasn't in my interests
I wanted to fly like Red Bull
Seeing all of my favorite artists making a ripple
Hearing oldies on my phone, just surviving the winter
Making me motivated, I'm a soldier with writtens
And with the way I be moving, I'm sure I'll be making M's
But those hopes and dreams
Never come with no directions
You notice that the friends you got
Ain't really connections
Each song that you post, you just hope for better reception
Cause you gotta pay your bills before the tag of a necklace
And you gotta pay your dues before you're backed in your section
Gotta break and lose just to feel it get better
Then you learn to pick and choose who you want as your brethren
Take a seat up in my room because class is in session
I been feeling like an outsider
Feeling like the Outcast
I guess I'm afraid this shit won't last
Wishing I'm the outlier
I be hanging out back
But they never said it'd move so fast.
And as you're learning the game, it's like nothing ever stays the same
So if you jumping in, don't do it, I won't let you
Cause you'll sink, not swim, that's the shit they don't tell you
All these rappers wanna hop in the mix cause they get lit
They been lied to and misled into thinking they're sick
But they don't think about the biz, or even understand the cost of it
But it's all cool, they'll blow up soon because they got some bars to spit
And now I'm positive
That I'll be dominant
You think you got it all
But really just overconfident
Ain't got the cars and shit
Cause they don't matter
The shit that really matters
Is making beats, forming patterns
I mix it up with a master
I'm sorry if it's a bastard
I just mix until it's sick
And start the lyric writing after
Then writing until your hands hurt
You really just might be injured
Like you're lifting a new ton
Physics, man, not the Panther
Record and mix til it's perfect
Restart and do it again
You fucking give it your life
Just for the chance that you'll win
Now you slaving away for hours
And ignoring your friends
Until they're finally sick of it
And they stop tryna make plans with you
Now if that ain't the truth
Well then I ain't a rapper
It ain't all hoes and money shit
Man, there is more to what happens
And you gotta learn to walk
Before you climb up the ladder
You gotta learn to talk
Before you chitter the chatter
You gotta learn to type
Before you enter the password
And you gotta learn to rap
Before you spitting shit backwards
So bluff a pokerface
Be careful what cards you play
And attention should be paid
So it don't end in disaster
I been feeling like an outsider
Feeling like the Outcast
I guess I'm afraid this shit won't last
Wishing I'm the outlier
I be hanging out back
But they never said it'd move so fast
And as you're learning the game, it's like nothing ever stays the same
So if you jumping in, don't do it, I won't let you
Cause you'll sink, not swim, that's the shit they don't tell you
I been feeling like an outsider
Feeling like the Outcast
I guess I'm afraid this shit won't last
Wishing I'm the outlier
I be hanging out back
But they never said it'd move so fast
And as you're learning the game, it seems nothing ever stays the same
So if you jumping in, don't do it, I won't let you
Cause you'll sink, not swim, that's the shit they don't tell you