I'm reminded of the somber years
Especially last summer where a knot appeared
In every rope of all I was involved with, yeah
Desires were demolished and my thoughts were never positive
While problems were resolved without involving any common sense
Pandemonium grew; bitterness ensued
While living with the want of getting out of town when I knew
It wasn't the smartest direction I could choose
It just didn't seem practical but then soon
I felt forgotten and depressed
And couldn't conquer all this stress
That resulted from remembering
Why I was there
My purpose seemed so pathetic
I was searching everywhere
To feel like I belonged
When I thought nobody cared
But hold on hold up wait a minute
Can I conquer these negative thoughts when my reality hasn't improved a lot?
I guess when I think about it I seem to surround
My doubts around excuses when I should be moving on and
Today I'm changing this pattern
I know I'm capable of greatness
Even if you doubt that I'll make it
Out of my current situation
I won't let go of all the dreams
I have because of a few problems
It's frustrating how
These doubts seem to weigh me down
So I'm standing up to them now
I'll muster up the strength
Somehow, I'll let go of my mistakes
I used to chase "True Love", but it once never occurred to me
That it wasn't the key to fulfill any insecurity
A person can't fully supply love because we are imperfect
And wired to need each other; sometimes that idea worries me
Cause all I seem to chase is someone else's recognition
As if that certain somebody would affirm my existence
Then I could finally be happy, but what does this entail?
Relying on words when they inevitably will fail
And I cannot remember
What confidence once looked like
My dreams are in the distance
When they used to be by my side
What society deems reality
Never feels satisfactory
I think we're meant for more than this
That desire is in our design
I won't let go of all the dreams
I have because of a few problems
It's frustrating how
These doubts seem to weigh me down
So I'm standing up to them now
I'll muster up the strength
Somehow, I'll let go of my mistakes
I'm tired of feeling abused
I've tried to forget what you
Have said and all it seems
Is to make me feel miserable
Am I still feeling abused?
I've tried to forget what you
Have said but all you've done
Is said stuff that is so predictable