After sundown, awake at night The disappointment and disarray Carved onto my skin Blood in my mouth Colorblind and unease Time just stopped around me And nothing ever since felt so real What you see Is something I cannot see Somewhere I keep my hands closed My head down With my arms wrapped around me When the shadows cover my tired eyes I see you And the blackness fills my lungs Another time Made up minds On different sides With your hand against my spine I can see the sadness in your eyes But I can't feel it And I don't want to.