Daydream my way through university Crystal ball doesn't seem so sure on me I cant say I disagree I lean in, try to kiss you on the cheek You say, "things aren't how they used to be" I cant say I disagree I will carry this pain for the rest of my days, rest of my days Aware of a need for change, I will stay in my way Stay in my way ♪ I keep my mouth shut when I wanna speak I'm told that isn't how it has to be I can't say I disagree It's just hard when I don't know what I want A mental breakdown in a restaurant I scream, "how will I know if i've been scrubbed clean Of everything when I go to sleep?" Then you say i've got to calm down This is the third time this happened in this week So I will carry this pain in the back of my brain, back of my brain Coming to terms with the fact that what I love will drive me insane And that's ok