My heart still beats it still hurts There will never be a last time I'm tired of thinking it would be different if I had given more When I'm crying on my knees I don't need anyone telling me That I should be trying harder than I've already tried This anguish always seeks me I just can't find any meaning to keep moving on Though I cover my feelings up I'm terrified And I feel fine It's paradoxical It seems I'm about to sabotage myself again When a cold wind blows through my bones I can try not to let it in But the fact is that affects me I doubt the lights when I sense the dark Calm does not last very long I just don't know how or if I'll ever fix it But I will find an answer To break paradigms I wish I could dive in a complex inner world I'm not allowed to fit in I doubt the lights when I sense the dark Calm does not last very long I just don't know how or if I'll ever fix it But I will find an answer To break paradigms I wish I could dive in a complex inner world I'm not allowed to fit in There's nothing wrong with dropping my hands And saying you're not willing to go this far Your silence shouts out loud what I feared most to hear I'm fancying things way beyond my perspective Do you believe it's over What if we just start over? As the cold wind blow through our bones Let the cold wind blow through our bones