I can't lose myself in this embrace I'm wide awake Because the higher you climb The further you fall The harder you love The faster it all comes crashing down And I felt for all the things I hate about myself So they will So they will leave me as well Why do I do this to myself in the first place? Chasing smoke with something sweet just to hide the taste Because the difference is nothing new The only difference is what you do I can't take it back I can't take it all back So I took my chances, no matter what the cost I'm better now, I've loved and lost We all look for answers while you found me And I'm sorry I hate to be shamelessly Free of disguise Why do I do this to myself in the first place? Chasing smoke with something sweet just to hide the taste Because the difference is nothing new The only difference is what you do I can't take it back Just give me something to follow I know is true Give me something to hold That I don't see right through Give me something new So I can fall in love with you Give me something new