I like writing songs but I like you more
Is that alright? Can I say that without it sounding like I need you
And I'm not motivated to succeed too
My dad used to say if you love something you'll do anything
Put all your time into it
And that sounded nice, but like something I didn't want
So I thought maybe I don't want this enough at all
Because I love being on stage but I also love feeling small
I like to go to house parties and stand by the wall
With my best friend, just watching people talk
And I like to see films at home from my bed all cozy with a tea
And I like to read myself to sleep, books about aliens or biographies
Is this naive of me?
Is that how it works?
Do you have to give everything up?
Sounds like a goddamn curse
I wanna have it all at once
Be a star and be in love
I don't wanna be alone and it seems like that how it goes
All of my ex boyfriends they played music too
And it always got in the way
I think I need a break from musicians and dates
I know that tour is fun and I'd like to go on one eventually
But I think I'll bring Amber and Sasha with me instead of a lover
And I think we'll take a day off by the lake
Swim in our underwear and watch a romantic comedy like The Holiday
Because I used to hate being left behind so far away
And working is great but why can't they remember to call?
What's the point of leaving at all
If you have nothing to come back to?
I want something to come back to
I do, I do, I do
But is that how it works?
Do you have to give everything up?
Sounds like a goddamn curse
I wanna have it all at once
Be a star and be in love
I don't wanna be alone and it seems like that how it goes
I heard today that Clooney is getting divorced
And it made me sad because he must have been so sure at first
But celebrities have a tendency to end up hurt
I don't know if it's the fame or the money or the travelling the world
Or the time that they have to spend apart from each other
But whatever it is it's scary and I'm not sure it's worth it to me
Honestly
What does success even mean?
I just want to be a kid
Playing guitar and writing songs because she likes it