I won't give it a name Just cable tied my wrist to the railing You got so quiet You thought I wouldn't notice You started turning so lilac Barely alive in my hands and yellow around the edges You used to speak so honestly So uninterrupted And now all I see is a lack of sincerity Inarticulate As and when it serves you best Locks on the cabinets I put them there for myself But for everyone's benefit I was ashamed I shook like thunder You poured like rain I should've known my place I wish that I'd never said anything And there was no mercy from the water As it smothered its favourite daughter I won't give it a name It won't forgive me for my mistakes They always told you that your body was built to be fixed Their hooks tried to drag you to their parapet But this is my church, this my house Biting your hand over my mouth And this is my church, this my house Biting your hand over my mouth You used to speak to consciously Of all that you offered Now you only speak in apologies Inarticulate As and when it serves you best Locks on the cabinets I put them there for myself But for everyone's benefit Head pressed against the sink Getting rid of everything wrong with me Performing my own cautery What if they give you everything And wash it down with mercury I was ashamed I shook like thunder You poured like rain I should've known my place I wish that I'd never said anything And there was no mercy from the water As it smothered its favourite daughter And there was no mercy from the water As it smothered its favourite daughter And there was no mercy from the water As it smothered its favourite daughter I won't give it a name It won't forgive me for my mistakes