I took your photos off my wall and replaced them with pictures of my friends. I know you burned the ones you had, and I'm sorry for this year. I'm sorry that I got mad. But you gotta believe me. I didn't burn the ones I had. They're in a box in my closet with all the other stuff I wish I never had. I never wanted to make this feel so hopeless. I'll cut my fingers on ticket stubs to movies that we talked through. Every photograph reminds me that I miss you. You never wanted to come over and ask me why I ordered them chronologically. I'm bleeding through my shirt and onto the concrete. And through my shoes you'll feel my heartbeat; a thousand miles trekked though your streets. I didn't burn the ones I had. They're in a box in my closet with all the other stuff I wish I never had. I never wanted to make this feel so hopeless. I'll cut my fingers on ticket stubs to movies that we talked through. Every photograph reminds me that I miss you. You never wanted to come over and ask me why I ordered them chronologically. I'm bleeding through my shirt and onto the concrete. And through my shoes you'll feel my heartbeat; a thousand miles trekked though your streets. I loved you and all the lines you traced in my life. Like cursive poetry in sunlight. I see you fine but something's not right. Last night, I dreamed that we got married and we were happy in a house that we built for ourselves and I felt at ease. I never wanted to turn this into silence. I'll cut my fingers on promises I broke and I'm so sorry that I stumbled and erased all of the songs that we wrote. We crossed our hearts we'd self destruct and leave this bitter world behind.