I've got this self-destructive energy
Text my ex and regret it immediately
End up in somebody's bed and wake up hating me
Hating me
Scrolling through my phone, god knows how many hours
It's been at least a couple days since I've taken a shower
Biting my nails, my room is a mess (mhm)
And I know exactly what's coming next
I got this cabin fever
Wanna dig myself down deeper
My alter ego is a grim reaper
But staying home is so much cheaper
I've got this self-destructive energy
Text my ex and regret it immediately
End up in somebody's bed and wake up hating me
Instead, I'll get tattoos and therapy
I've got a crash and burn kinda tendency
Call my mom, pick a fight, buy some shit I don't need
And I could skip this hangover that'll last for a week
Instead, I'll get tattoos and therapy
Water in my cup but I wish it was stronger
Gotta keep myself together just a little bit longer
I'm standing right on the edge, the tension's a thread (ah, ah)
And I know exactly what's coming next
I got this tantrum temper
Finger on a hairpin trigger
My alter ego is a buzz killer
Don't want to be the one to tell her though
I've got this self-destructive energy
Text my ex and regret it immediately
End up in somebody's bed and wake up hating me
Instead, I'll get tattoos and therapy
I've got a crash and burn kinda tendency
Call my mom, pick a fight, buy some shit I don't need
And I could skip this hangover that'll last for a week
Instead, I'll get tattoos and therapy
I'm starting to spiral, I'm checking my vitals (oh, oh)
The panics attacking, I'm overreacting (oh, oh)
It feels like I'm dying, I wake up, and I'm fine then (oh, oh)
I'll do it all again tomorrow though
I've got this self-destructive energy (oh-oh)
Text my ex and regret it immediately
End up in somebody's bed and wake up hating me (hating me)
Instead, I'll get tattoos and therapy
I've got a crash and burn kind of tendency
Call my mom, pick a fight, buy some shit I don't need
And I could skip this hangover that'll last for a week
Instead, I'll get tattoos and therapy