I paint the struggle And I make it sound beautiful All this pain is on my mind Look what you put me through I don't even know what it is I did to you Got me bleeding Just stay looking for my funeral Don't wanna feel alive I wanna feel gone So I smoke on this till my heads numb Told me that I was the only one Imma stay up till the sun is gone Why don't you stay a while How can I make you smile The pain so deep That it cuts like its thorns Only ever saw you as a rose Turn to the devil I'm growing my horns Pick up the bottle Cause it's the only thing I'm Letting close Yeah it's all ill ever know Oh Baby go I don't wanna harm your soul Got the lead and I put it to my throat Baby watch me go