When we wake in the morning we will take the bus And go down to the city from the house On top of this man-make mountain, this hollow hill From the mountain and down to the city where everything stands still Two little hands grabbing for two big ones Leading a safe way through the noice and alarm And the cars and the boats and the fumes in my nose And the city is pulling the blood out of me 'Cause I never really had you No, I never really had you So we go down in the tunnel and up on the other side The leaf and the face and the laughing seagulls And I don't want to let you go, I don't want to let you go But soon I will have to 'cause we're almost there Just a few more blocks then this good thing stops And I'll wave you off... 'Cause I never really had you No, I never really had you And it's easy to see when you're safe in a distance It's easy to speak when you can't feel anything And somebody's got to take the blame And I blame myself every single day For having you, and losing you But all this time you were always on my mind And the city is big - much too big And the weekend is short - much too short I wanted to show you everything But the distance is fucking it up The weekend has come to a stop Our 48 hours are up Look at the millionaire taking a limo Slipping a 500 bill to the doorman American fuck-up you should give it to me I wounld spend it better I would do something pretty I would buy some time, just an hour or two Let the kids take the later train home instead But everything around rushing through my head, rushing through my head... *Cause I never really had you No, I never really had you... So I go out from the station and back to the hill Into the apartment, am I breathing still?