Can we talk about The grief I feel in my first spot That no one ever talks about Finally made it out my mamas house And when the lights go down I admit that it feels kinda free On my own But there's so much that I don't understand Dancing in my living room all night With Sade playing in my slides Kinda wanna laugh wanna cry Kinda wanna live wanna die Kinda wanna hold me in the midnight Dry all of my tears from when I was a child Kinda wanna understand What it takes to be who I am Maybe I'll crash Maybe I'll burn Maybe I'll live Maybe I'll learn I think I'll understand What it takes to be who I am I dont wanna live past eighty Regretting all the things I didn't say And I refuse to live and let it past me by I rather live life in real time I might make breakfast at midnight Sometimes I sit in my living room and cry Cause I don't know why I feel everything Dancing in my living room all night With Sade playing in my slides Kinda wanna laugh wanna cry Kinda wanna live wanna die Kinda wanna hold me in the midnight Dry all of my tears from when I was a child Kinda wanna understand What it takes to be who I am Maybe I'll crash Maybe I'll burn Maybe I'll live Maybe I'll learn I think I'll understand What it takes to be who I am I'm grown I'm grown I'm grown Yes I am grown I'm grown I'm grown I'm grown Yes I am grown I'm grown I'm grown I'm grown Yes I am grown I'm grown I'm grown I'm grown Thank God I'm grown I'm grown Thank God I feel whole