I am the man I never wanted to be Living with the guilt for those I've hurt Light casts the shadow of an addict A lingering reminder of my failures Treading in a lake of sin Bricks of my past crammed within Righteousness pulling at my skin Darkness envelops all Standing in the distance a menacing blur A haze of confusion, in the shape of fear By the time you hear You're already dead Courage, circumstantial and temporary Moments of strength dictate your destiny Nothing is forever Love exists only through hatred My endless pride, smug and horrified Controlled by greed, watching others bleed Insatiable lust, violating trust Divine wrath, my blood stained path True fear, embraced by those who survive Every breath I take fills my lungs With envy for the happiness deprived Cleanse the earth and say goodbye If seeing is believing, I've watched myself die