Old man, was it worth it? Was it all that it seemed? Did you ever find the carcass of your dreams? Oh, you must know I was young The fear I had not yet outrun, Though I was never meant to hurt you But I do, oh I do, ohhh It's got a hold of me, but it keeps coming away And you were always looking at me from afar I can't change I'm a stranger to my nature Would you love me anyway? If my head don't talk right Don't let me down, old man. Through the swollen eyes of your Ritalin It's like a stranger's standing over me Some kind of faceless beast that watches as I sleep Now there's a hard lump in my throat And all the best times that you've ever known Are all just fading off the back of my sanity Oh please I made you weep It's got a hold of me but it keeps coming away But you were always looking at me from afar, I can't change (?) I'm a stranger to my nature Would you love me anyway? If my head don't talk right Don't let me down, old man I wanted (?) I left the seeds of a memory And I wondered if I've come too far.