Shed so many tears on this journey
Independent bookings we did it with no attorney
Making all this fire how long until it burn me
Gave my niggas a push they rolling just like a gurney
Phani Yaya and Tessie got my back until the end
Can these niggas even rap
I'm not asking for a friend
Left a 60k job just to rap on beats
Now I'm sleeping on a couch trynna figure this shit out
Depression and self doubt
Blocking my own blessing
I know the losses is lessons
Don't even know why I stress it
Never really address it
I'm prolly too busy running
Going through some trials
You could see without a summon
See the silver lining with this gold on me
Never burned a bridge when life took it's toll on me
No layaway but depression got a hold on me
Look at what I built
Lately my smile is made of guilt
My cup runneth over
I still cry off what I spilled
Cause bitch I really grinded
I done dealt with all the pain
I done ran out of cash and had to rummage through the change
Pulling up to coinstar without a dollar to my name
That's the moment I decided life would never be the same
When it ain't no one to blame but yo muthafucking self
What the fuck is mental health I can't afford to get no help
I was jealous of sneakk cause he was promising
And I was stuck up in the V without acknowledgement
I was a leader way before I had a following
Couldn't spit my pride out I had to swallow it
I'm six figured in I could pull up all the statements
So when the smoke clears
They gone know I wasn't vaping
10k in ads man it sound like I'm faking
Raising my vibration
I'm the one that got it shaking
Pops gave me 20 now I wish I didn't take it
Cause now I gotta explain why the fuck I didn't make it
Got me contemplating if I made the right move
If I should've quit my job
If I should've stayed in school
I invested in the team
Bitch I thought I'd be on
I was wrong
I might never make another fuckin song
Everybody watching what I do on fourth and long
Find out in November bitch I'm gone