I'm just living 'cause I'm obligated I keep trying 'cause I've got to get it right I pull the trigger but I hesitate Lying here beside myself I go to work 'cause I've got nothing going I count the hours by the second in my head The guy beside me's gonna drive me crazy Talking 'bout his children like that I read the paper on the bus I ride home I see the pictures of the people who are dead And I imagine what it must be like to Just lay down all your debts Everybody's gotta find a God they love Everybody's gotta figure out the end No one can tell you how to live forever And who would want to in light of all of this I go to work just to avoid tomorrow And I'm afraid that I am losing all my hair I told the doctor just to medicate the part of me that still is here I'm drinking water with my whiskey these days I'm watching William beam himself around the stars I call my mother every second Sunday We talk about how good things are (repeat) La la la