Thought I'd let it go Placeholders, these roads When I found out all the things that I wanted What if it isn't enough? To look back and see clearly and I found That I had it from the start and I got so caught in all of this Convinced in this place I don't exist Thought I'd let it go Thought I'd be the one to make it Seems like I'm back to where I started But I don't know Where I could go Thought it'd be this time Broke buildings, these dead streets And all the secrets that they're hiding To chipping paint on lights Even your own voice Now all the colors just seem less vibrant I got so caught in all of this Convinced in this place I don't exist Could just get up and go And I still have the time to see all of those places that I wanted But maybe I'll wait till I'm old Cause I don't know Where I could go This energy is killing me Even in my house I wanna go home Now I don't know You're a smell I can't forget Of thunderstorms + cigarettes Frame from a film that always replays in my head Forever clear but not directional Cautiously losing all control You already know This is not what you want Cause I don't know Where I could go This energy is killing me Even in my house I wanna go home Now I don't know Thought I'd let it go Thought I'd let you know that I found out all The things that I wanted