Thought I'd let it go
Placeholders, these roads
When I found out all the things that I wanted
What if it isn't enough?
To look back and see clearly and I found
That I had it from the start and
I got so caught in all of this
Convinced in this place I don't exist
Thought I'd let it go
Thought I'd be the one to make it
Seems like I'm back to where I started
But I don't know
Where I could go
Thought it'd be this time
Broke buildings, these dead streets
And all the secrets that they're hiding
To chipping paint on lights
Even your own voice
Now all the colors just seem less vibrant
I got so caught in all of this
Convinced in this place I don't exist
Could just get up and go
And I still have the time to see all of those places that I wanted
But maybe I'll wait till I'm old
Cause I don't know
Where I could go
This energy is killing me
Even in my house I wanna go home
Now I don't know
You're a smell I can't forget
Of thunderstorms + cigarettes
Frame from a film that always replays in my head
Forever clear but not directional
Cautiously losing all control
You already know
This is not what you want
Cause I don't know
Where I could go
This energy is killing me
Even in my house I wanna go home
Now I don't know
Thought I'd let it go
Thought I'd let you know that I found out all
The things that I wanted