If I scream into these sheets when I'm alone Does it make some kind of sound With no one here to hear it Tearing through my throat If I raise my eyes to see a silken robe As dark as starless night Do I still have a say in When it's time to go I just can't care anymore Should my footsteps fall Without pause towards the end How sufficient was my love More or less than final Words between two friends "You are a home to me" is what you always said So in this quiet, empty place All I can ask is if I stopped giving you that Sorry I'm so absent I'm just so scared anymore Feels like someone's going to Pull the fucking floor Sorry I'm so quiet I just can't talk anymore Every word drives the blade Deeper than before I've been so scared of failing I just can't care anymore There is a point at which sleep Is more for shelter than rest I cannot speak any healing Pummeled and out of breath I cannot make you believe That I love you to death I cannot spread any hope If I don't have any left Light bursts from the side When my hand stings my face And it doesn't chase the darkness I've created away And it doesn't change the way You will remember my name I fucking promise it's me I fucking swear I'm the same Sat reclined, driver's side And the rain understood I can't be rid of my bad I can't be rid of my good I cannot choose which Parts of me are misunderstood I can choose which parts of me Die underfoot, yeah