I don't think I am what I was before I never watched anyone die before I wish I'd never left home I wish I'd left it alone Temptation is a disease You can never do as you please Your body takes over and your mind don't care Never think twice what might happen out there Go straight in for the ultimate sin And nobody else ever seems to care So I took what I thought was mine And waited for a very long time And I thought I knew what happened to you Cos you told me exactly what to do So I did it right and stayed up all night Felt like killing myself for you I don't think like I did before I never watched anyone die before I felt like I died as well The look the words the smell The way you looked at me As if I'd never be free I remember the words like a favorite song Cos I forget the way things went wrong Faked a picture of perfect health Then I realised I was killing myself I don't think I am what I was before I never watched anyone die before I dream in slow motion and I wake up screaming