There was this gate Into my persecution Built of curiosity Now it's built of nothing It was never about finding a way But the current state of mind You'd like to fall You want it Aside There's not much left to be part of And the cause is meant to rest inside Close to find out I brought this on myself Whatever it is I feel, it needs to go away It'd be so easy to cope with But it clearly wants to stay Pathetic Conflicting So why do I have the need to care? It's always the struggle Then the thoughts Followed by an accident Because of you I feel worse And also know it could be better Pathetic Conflicting At the same time With the best and the worst purpose Reflected in my behavior That's why I hoped you'd go for a walk But you're still here waiting by my side It's the jiff, the instant That keeps me going and makes me hate you Should I just wait then? Take a rest? When all there is is time...