Waking up in suffering Same as i was yesterday Cold breath speaks kindly Tells me to go back to sleep Words that no one hears Pass through paralyzed In visions of darkness I close my eyes I lay my head down to rest But sleep never comes Love evades every thought And pills nullify my restless mind I hate myself but i couldn't hate you Even if i tried Hiding in my purest failure I attempt to understand Why hate and love seem so different But are one and the same Falling out of grace i know It'll never change Even if i tried