I used to think I had the answers A hope in something I could find But hope became a bitter cancer And grew in me stealing all of my time That's why I retreated from you I came unglued Separated myself from you Kept my distance Parasitic hope to steal my fight That's why I keep you close So no one else can know The pain I own If only you'd listen You might understand this All I've been speaking, love I've been adjusting Learning to trust But it's harder than I thought You speak words of affirmation I feel guilty You're frustrated I've been in love before And I just do not have the fight That's why I keep you close So no one else can know The pain I own It's all mine and I try But I cannot let it go That's why I keep you close The pain I own