So much could change if I wanted it to
Already so much has changed since I hopped in the booth
I got no one to blame if I stop with this music
I've been trying to write something I'm just not in the mood
I swear this shit is all I have in life but what's it to you
The same cats who think they're critics giving props to a goose
Mocking my new shit
They probably thought I dropped it for views
I couldn't care less for opinions when you're not in my shoes
I keep tripping over nothing like a knot in my shoes
I can't pretend that I've been happy I'm just lost and confused
Half a gram mixed with baccy nah that's not going to do it
What was i doing
Going back to her was Not in the Blueprint
I'm an idiot
They wonder why I'm locked in a room
On some stupid shit
I got to stop this constant abuse
I'm not used to this there's people trying to use me for a flick
Back then I had no one so I'm proper confused
People I love turned their back on me for things that they regret
In the end it was on me so what can I do
All this pressure's like a shotty to my head
I'm still trying to make moves
If I've got nothing now then what can I lose
People I love turned their back on me for things that they regret
In the end it was on me so what can I do
All this pressures like a shotty to my head but
I'm still trying to make moves
If I've got nothing now what can I lose
It's like the more I try to help myself the harder it gets
And I know that shit's bin worse and its half in my head
I can't pretend that things are perfect when I'm partially a wreck
At least I'm making money now and I ain't starving to death
Charge for the feature still cost them like an arm and a leg
Ask Marcus I skipped parties to work on my craft instead
No lager, just me in the dark with a pen
And everyone that came around was coming down from something
I don't want to argue with them
It comes naturally to some for me it's hard to pretend
When I started writing music all my bars were a mess
I can't explain the way I felt but I was harboring stress
Part of me is scared I know they could be laughing instead
Take it back before the drugs when things were half as intense
Make it back before the sundown and laugh without sash
He faced everything now it's just a mask that he wears